Patience

I discovered something today, I have Moe integrity than her. Her being the selfish one who believe because she was the first sibling born then she's a saint.

Apparently I'm out to fight her by shutting off the internet, it's not something logical like I hate the constant flashing and buzzing sound, whilst it takes jet half an hour to discover its even been shut off. It's because I want her to suffer because I use my 3G network to watch movies etc online. Never mind that I'm a PAYG customer and so that costs me money ... but hey logic never applies.

And the tears were an excellent touch, makes me seem like a villian because what's the point in backing me, apparently being educated makes me the vicious and vindictive one ... which is the reason why I stopped talking in the first place I'm not here to play in petty politics to try and divide a parent's backing, so I've rather just let her have it, it'll hurt mum less. That's what the coward inside more says.

Anyway I needed an outlet because you can only hold in so many years, and the whole tears thing is not great for my skin.

Just wanted to add a note, mum goes on holiday next month, this is her warning, to mum (if mum believes me and I bother telling her - she didn't believe me last time) and to me (because she thinks I'm actually scared) I'm going to get beats if I don't do as she wishes, hilarious ... because she thinks that I think like her, she's in the dark, I actually tried to commit suicide she just wails that she will in order to get attention. This will be fun, does this count as domestic violence, lol, I know I would kill a guy if he beat me and serve the sentence, but my sister holds my mum's heart, what can I do. I came back for my sanity and realise I'm better of in an asylum perhaps, at least I would have been too drugged up to ponder or sob ...