Petty trials

Okay well I sound like a kid ... No idea what to think except anger management!

Okay well I'm still not talking to the "elder" although I found out today raat some of my packages are being tossed straight into the bin ... I know exciting! I think my nosey self has managed to save the majority, if not the folk who sent them will probably have to seems them again ...

I think someone is trying to court me, it's stance because I don't seemyself as the marrying kind, I'm not pretty, I don't have any household skills, terrible communicator and I don't like folk touching me, at all. Folk find the last one extremely bizarre and make sure to point it out. Slightly annoying tbh.

But I think he might genuinely think I'm okay, an imperfect life companion ... I'm still half in denial about it, but he's already talked about kids and the house, etc feeling overwhelmed, although I also wonder if he's pulling my leg. Of I cannot trust my mother how can I trust anyone else ... I feel like I should ask for help but I have no idea who to ask and what the question actually is. I think single life is far less complex then being worried about another person's feelings ...